Saturday, June 13, 2009

The wages have not changed

I am on my way home from seeing the play In the Beginning. It was an experience, and some one has gas. I am in an okay mood, it just seems like my mind is going a thousand miles a minute. I am so ready for the world. So many things have happened in my life one of the notable things is the fact that my boy got into kipp infinity.. Yes,I am very impressed with that school and believe that he will get the level of education that I desire.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Hello Somebody

I am sitting at home today, and for the first time in almost forever I have nothing to do. Well technically I should be looking for employment, But as far as school goes I am completely finished. I picked up my cap and gown yesterday. I completed college... Go me.. Go me... Now on to the next stage of my life.. Drum roll please..... I am going.... back to school. I'ts somthing about the classroom that I just love..What am I gonna do with my life??? No longer will I aske myself the question what am I gonna be.. Why I'm already something. I'm a lady, a mother, a sister, a friend, and a child of God. I don't need to be anything what I need is to do. I am a bit older and for this year I wanna work on doing... So what will I do??? I'll keep you posted.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

tGbtg.... That is my official mantra for the rest of my life....

Thursday, March 5, 2009


Hello World it's me ..
It's been so long since I've written anything, I wonder do I have anything to say? But, of course I do. I am really frustrated because I am unable to add picture or change my layout so I told my girl that unless she shares her expertise with me then I am out.. Yes O U T. I am so mad right not just steaming and since I am to embrassed to say why, lets just say that I've been around this mountain before, so right now when I should be sleep I'm up venting.. And this is not making me feel any better. So I have come to the conclusion that the world is hell.. which if you really think about it makes life a living hell.. But I am heaven bound.. But aint it just ironic that I would have to go through hell to get to heaven.. Oh I just wanna scream.. I am so so so frustrated and i hate it. I wish I was a rapper because then I would write a song about it... I'd call it the blues, but that has already been done so too late. I guess there is nothing new under the sun. But it is really close to one so I better get to reading my word so that I can catch some Z gotta sleep. I might have been sleep already but service ran until 10:30... augggghhhh... All those who know the word of prayer pray for me and I'll do the same....

Friday, January 23, 2009

Life is funny

T.G.I.F and I got a paycheck. I am trying to concentrate on the positive things because three days later my blood is still boiling. Rob is a little b@+_÷ and he deserves to be smacked. Then the anger that I feel cause I allowed him to draw me into his craziness. I knew he was a drama queen. But also mad cause I led him. Not wanted to get back with him. See its something about the two C'suy
that I love. Cufflinks and Cologne are me thing. So come to think of it could he my fixation with that that I mistook for something else. But putting that aside, what do I do now that I wanna punch him in the face. I find my self picturing the ultimate beat down and when he looks at me with those crazy eyes and say why??? I simply respond you know why!!! But that not gonna happen, not cause its impossible to arrange, I could do it myself but I am a christian now so thats outta the question. Then why cant I get it outta my mind.... I had been doing so good living drama free since the funeral. That drama wasn't even my fault, funerals make people crazy and they were crazy to begin with. But this dude drags me into his affair, people get slapped for stuff like that. Then part of me feel bad for dude cause obviously his self esteem is jacked, he sneaking around with somebody else's chick. I know many don't understand my reasoning for not wanting to kick the chick, but it's against my policy. I decided long ago that I would hold the person who I was dealing with responsible. Now, it is true that this ideology is a holdover from my teenage days but it still applies. How you gon be mad at somebody you don't know.
. Of course they gon snake you. But always hold accountable the one you know.

Monday, January 12, 2009

I Am tired

Happyuy Monday....
I am dog tired, like I cant even thinstraiuyght and I have a 14 page paper due wednesday. The only thing keeping me from an a+ is this paper. The only thing keeping me from this paper is the topic.
Consciousness vs. Unconsciousness
yeah, there I go with my deep self, except that i dont wanna talk about this. I am daily I still consciously do things that are how should I say stupid. Yea thats the right term. Then I feel stupid because I know better, no rather I feel desperate. How can I be desperate? I am a strong black female, I can take on the world and still stand. Then why can't i look in the mirror and like who I see. my consciousness is eating me.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

It is so

As I sit here at this NCTF events, I can't help but to rejoice in two things. The first is that I truly believe that God knows best, he knows what's best for me & second is that grace can spend the rules. This is a new year and I thank God for the opportunities that are going to present themselves. In kissing new yearsyy good bye I learned that 2008 was the year that I learned to trust Gofyyully. Last year my friend V presented her belief that some things that happened to her her unfair, unexplainable and not for her best. I was bothered by that because I was unable to explain to her just why untrue. And reviewing the events of my life I can say that all events lead somewhere. They are preparing you for where God ultimately wants you to go. Whetuher or not you get the lesson isuup to you. It is sometimes fun but more often it is painful. The reason for that is because nothing seems to grab our attention quiet like pain. So here's to all the pain, hurt, regret, frustration, anger and fear. The word is true all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose. I Am Called !!!!!!