Life is funny

T.G.I.F and I got a paycheck. I am trying to concentrate on the positive things because three days later my blood is still boiling. Rob is a little b@+_÷ and he deserves to be smacked. Then the anger that I feel cause I allowed him to draw me into his craziness. I knew he was a drama queen. But also mad cause I led him. Not wanted to get back with him. See its something about the two C'suy
that I love. Cufflinks and Cologne are me thing. So come to think of it could he my fixation with that that I mistook for something else. But putting that aside, what do I do now that I wanna punch him in the face. I find my self picturing the ultimate beat down and when he looks at me with those crazy eyes and say why??? I simply respond you know why!!! But that not gonna happen, not cause its impossible to arrange, I could do it myself but I am a christian now so thats outta the question. Then why cant I get it outta my mind.... I had been doing so good living drama free since the funeral. That drama wasn't even my fault, funerals make people crazy and they were crazy to begin with. But this dude drags me into his affair, people get slapped for stuff like that. Then part of me feel bad for dude cause obviously his self esteem is jacked, he sneaking around with somebody else's chick. I know many don't understand my reasoning for not wanting to kick the chick, but it's against my policy. I decided long ago that I would hold the person who I was dealing with responsible. Now, it is true that this ideology is a holdover from my teenage days but it still applies. How you gon be mad at somebody you don't know.
. Of course they gon snake you. But always hold accountable the one you know.

I Am tired

Happyuy Monday....
I am dog tired, like I cant even thinstraiuyght and I have a 14 page paper due wednesday. The only thing keeping me from an a+ is this paper. The only thing keeping me from this paper is the topic.
Consciousness vs. Unconsciousness
yeah, there I go with my deep self, except that i dont wanna talk about this. I am daily I still consciously do things that are how should I say stupid. Yea thats the right term. Then I feel stupid because I know better, no rather I feel desperate. How can I be desperate? I am a strong black female, I can take on the world and still stand. Then why can't i look in the mirror and like who I see. my consciousness is eating me.

It is so

As I sit here at this NCTF events, I can't help but to rejoice in two things. The first is that I truly believe that God knows best, he knows what's best for me & second is that grace can spend the rules. This is a new year and I thank God for the opportunities that are going to present themselves. In kissing new yearsyy good bye I learned that 2008 was the year that I learned to trust Gofyyully. Last year my friend V presented her belief that some things that happened to her her unfair, unexplainable and not for her best. I was bothered by that because I was unable to explain to her just why untrue. And reviewing the events of my life I can say that all events lead somewhere. They are preparing you for where God ultimately wants you to go. Whetuher or not you get the lesson isuup to you. It is sometimes fun but more often it is painful. The reason for that is because nothing seems to grab our attention quiet like pain. So here's to all the pain, hurt, regret, frustration, anger and fear. The word is true all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose. I Am Called !!!!!!